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Hey, I know you!I'll do whatever I want, Gosh! 5月1日 Emmah stopped sucking her thumb!I forgot to mention in my last blog that Emmah has stopped the horrible habit of sucking her thumb! She got a booboo on it one day and needed a band aid and she didn't like the taste of the band aid and we left it on there for a week or so and she just quit- cold turkey! We're so proud of her! A year has passed...Well just about a year has come and go-
We moved (again) to Ryan and Leslies. I worked with Ryan @ Lowes and I was the made of honor in their wedding last year. They bought this huge house in December and weren't using the whole upstairs to the house and asked us if we wanted to move in. I was totally excited immediatly about it, Jeremy on the other hand was very skiddish aobut it, with good reason, afterall we are sharing a bath and a half bath with them and a kitchen! We've been here a month (1st week of that we were in florida, so it's really only been like 3 weeks) and we're still making adjustments, which haven't been easy, to say the least. We did it to save money. WE have almost $5000 in debt between Jeremy and I that needs to get paid off by the end June 2009 so that we can get married in September 2009. That's our plan anyway. Seems our plans tend to foil and don't work out the way we had hoped. I miss my friends more and more everyday and keep second guessing settling down and getting hitched. That ol ball n chain looks a little scary at this point in my life, but I know it's what I want in the long run. Sigh... Everyone always told me that life would only get harder, and they were right! grrr... lol.
Emmah's starting school this year believe it or not! She'll be going to Canandaigua School District which is a great school! She'll have a lot of opprotunitie's there that I never had, so I'm excited for her. She's 4 1/2 going on 20 and it's sad I'm really trying very hard to cherish the time I have with her now because she's still listening to me, and she loves to give me hugs and kisses! Taking a few classes this semester, which isn't going as well as I promised myself it would. With the moving, going to florida and wedding planning- I'm so glad I only have 2 weeks left! Wish me luck on passing! sigh...
I think that's all for now! TTFN! 5月10日 UpdateWhere should I start?
Well, we've moved from naples to farmington (right outside of canandaigua) so it's only 15 min to my work, and 25 for Jeremy, which totally rocks! we're living in a "managed" townhouse. it's pretty expensive, but well worth it bcuz it's so much closer for both of us to drive to work, and we're so close to EVERYTHING we like to do (shopping, eating, bars, etc.) And, Tyler and Emmah have their own bedrooms! Thank goodness! They both love it, so that's great!
Even though he won't admit it, I think Jeremy's having a tough time adjusting to being so far away from his family. It seems like he's at his parents more than he was before! Not that I mind, but, come on.
I love him very much, and i care for him deeply, but things haven't been great for us i suppose. It seems like we just disagree on EVERYTHING, and I always say the wrong things and he always says the wrong things, and we don't get along well. we'll have a few good days and then hate e/o for the next 10 days. I don't want to leave him (even if i did i'd have to wait 10 more months when the lease is done) but i wish he wouldn't sware at me, and i wish i wouldn't be so damn picky about shit. i mean, i can stop being so picky, but it's like i'm always testing him to see if he's really changing or not. i feel like no matter how great it's going, eventually, something will happen, and we'll go back to being miserable to e/o, and that's so unhealthy. i just don't really understand ANYTHING about him. i don't think he understands ANYTHING about me (which i must admit can be pretty difficult at times). i can feel that i'm almost to the end of my rope.
I don't want to start over with someone new, what a waste of time this would've been for me, in only some ways. i've grown a lot, so that's a good thing. but i mean, 3 years, right down the drain! i wish we could finally come to some understanding w/o killing e/o. i'm sick of being pissed and irratated and sad. i feel the most sorry for my Emmah. maybe that's why i'm really staying.
I just don't know. (sigh)  11月11日 First blog in a while...Well, not a whole lot is new. Still at Lowes, still living in Naples, still with Jeremy, amazingly after all the shit we've been through in the last like, month! Sigh.... Emmah's taking Dance classes now though- that's new and very exciting for us. She loves it. It helps that her best friend Lionna is taking the same class, they have sooo much fun together. I bought her a leotard at H & M. It was $13, which is kinda steep, I think, but she'll have it for quite a while. It's 2y-4y, and she's 3 now so it fits her perfectly. She's got her little ballet slippers and tap shoes. Hopefully this will something she sticks to and likes her whole life, not just right now cuz Lionna is doing it. Her class is only one day a week for 45mins which isn't bad at all. There's 9 other little girls in the class, so it's really funny when they all come in the parent waiting area to get a drink of water- all giggling and out breath.
We may be moving AGAIN, maybe not til after winter, but I think it'll prolly be before August of next year. Jeremy wants to get a 3 bedroom apt. I just want him to fix up his damn house so he can sell the damn thing- GRRR...
 Hopefully, I'll be posting pics of Miss Emmah in her ballet outfit soon. She's so cute... hehehe   9月4日 Val had her babySo, my friend Val had her baby a lil baby girl, yay! She was an average weight and length very healthy and very cute. I got to the hospital around 11:15am on Wednesday (30th) stayed all day til about 3:00 the next a.m. Went to my Gma's, took a 4 hour nap, got back to the hospital about 8:00am on Thursday a.m. (31st) Val had the baby around 10:00am. I'm still trying to catch up on some sleep. I spoke with her today, she said she's really sorry for yelling at me. She makes me giggle. I'm like, it's really okay. Emmah and I are going to see her and the baby tomorrow. I'm gonna get her started on the baby book, scrapbook, and help her set up her scanner, so she can put pics on her myspace.
Work is going- well, it's going- and I made my step sister's wedding invites. She's getting married October 14th. I'm kind of the unofficial decorater, which is ok, cuz I love doing that stuff. Jeremy got irritated with me again today, cuz he had the day off cuz of the holiday, and I had to work til 10pm, and I needed him to watch Emmah, he agreed to watch her but not til later, cuz he "didn't want to babysit on his day off." Nice, huh? So, I got the sitter's and she wasn't even there, nor did she answer her phone. Needless to say, Jer ended up coming to get her at Lowes, I clocked in 30 mins. late cuz of it, and he made me feel like shit for doing me a favor. "Well I wanted to go golfing, I had to call Tracey and drop Tyler off late, I didn't do ANYTHING today... bla bla bla.." he never used to be like this. Aren't you supposed to do things for the person you love to help them out? He was still irritated when I got home at 10:45pm! I don't know how many times today I thought to myself, "I just can't deal with this bullshit anymore" There's only so much crap a person can handle before they go nuts! I prolly won't go nuts, I'll just leave. ...sigh... |
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